A lot can change in a few months..

I'm beginning to realise just how much has changed in the space of just a few months.

Just a little while ago I was at my friends house talking about life and how things were going at that time. I was in tears because I felt so far away from God and, to be perfectly honest, I wasn't sure if he was even real.

Just a little while ago I was in sixth form. There were people I was 'friends' with, but were clearly having a really bad influence on me. But I saw them at school everyday and had no idea how to get out of the situation.

Just a little while ago I thought that I would go through sixth form and then have absolutely no idea what would happen next. Questioning my faith made this even more of a struggle as I wondered if there really was anyone guiding me, or if I was alone in this.

Just a little while ago I was saying that I wanted to move away from home, or at least spend some time away from home.

Just a little while ago I felt like I didn't really have any true friends. I lacked the Christian friends I needed to help keep me on track.

Just a little while ago I was becoming dependent on relationships with boys. I felt like I needed to be in a relationship with someone to feel happy and complete.

Just a little while ago I decided to step back from leading worship because I felt like I was cheating people by leading them in something that I wasn't sure if it was even real.



Isn't it amazing how quickly God can change things around?

I know now that God is very much real. I've experienced his presence and Him speaking to me. He guides me everyday and helps me make so many decisions.

I'm now out of sixth form. I'm not in the friendship groups I was before and have moved on from the things that they had led me to.

I now know my plan for the first half of next year. I know that God will guide me after those six months. I still don't know where I'll be, but I have faith that God has it all planned out.

In about three months time, I'll be going away from home for 6 months. I'll have my time away from home to see what it's really like. I might miss home and decide to come back for a while before I move out. Or I might decide I really like it and move away.

I now have so many really good friends who are mostly Christians. We have so much fun together. We meet up loads and just chat and have a laugh together. We support each other and are always there for each other.

I'm starting to learn that I need to depend on God. I need to strengthen my relationship with him before I get into any relationship with a guy. God will make me feel happy and complete. Any other relationship is a bonus.

I now really crave to lead worship again. I'm so passionate about it. However, I only have a couple of months left at church until I go to ywam, so I might not get to lead worship much for a little while!


I really hope that this post encourages people. Just a few months ago, I was in such a rubbish place. God has changed that. Things still aren't perfect, but they probably won't ever be. God is working with you and in you. Things will get so much better. Sometimes you need to go through a trial. It makes you so much stronger and things will change through that.

Situations change. But as long as you keep God in your life and in your decisions, everthing will work together for your good.